Skipping Christmas

Yes, I know.  Here it is, nearly Imbolc on the calendar, and I am just now sharing my ponderings of the Yule season.  If you have been following me on YouTube, you know that I haven’t actually skipped it.  In fact, I have had a very full several months of observance and celebration.  But, what has it all meant to me and, perhaps most importantly, what place does Yule hold on the Wheel of the Year?

[Please note: the above title, “Skipping Christmas”, is a reference to a novel by John Grisham, and you probably already know that it wasn’t skipped then, either.]

This is a very special time of the year, as it holds significance to so many people of different paths, which must include the Christian holiday of Christmas and the Jewish Hanukkah.  For each of us, it is a celebration of light, — the Christians welcome the light called the Son of God, the Jews celebrate an eight-day Festival of Lights, and pagans witness the rebirth of the light half of the year.

The actual word “Yule” comes from the Norse Viking winter holiday, Jól, which is actually a plural word (indicating that this pagan celebration took place over a period of several days and nights).  The 1st century Norwegian king, Haakon the Good (a Christian) actually legislated that the beginnings of both Yule and Christmas had to occur on the same day. It is interesting to note that, aside from the excessive amounts of feasting and drinking that occurred during Jól, the swearing of oaths (unbreakable pacts) was the most important part of their celebration.  Was this the beginnings of our own modern New Year’s custom of making resolutions?

Regardless, I am most interested in the fact that, to each of us, this time of year is definitely celebrated as a season.  For our Christian and Jewish brothers and sisters, this seems quite reasonable, considering the significance it holds for them.  But, for pagans?  Can we merely anticipate the return of longer periods of daylight in our days for an entire season?

I look to our pagan ancestors for guidance of what to include in my Yule season celebration.  As many were farmers, and unable to tend crops during the winter, they spent these long, dark days preparing for the next growing season.  They cleaned and repaired their tools, and laid their plans for the season to come.  Their weapons were also sharpened and made ready, should their use be required.

Many modern-day pagans use this time of year to do shadow work, — to work on the parts of our own personalities that we often hide or deny, to bring them into the light of awareness.   I find that there is no better therapy for depression, no better way to overcome crippling habits than to re-direct my energy toward the planning of a new project I am excited about.  This holds especially true for me during this time in my life when I’m facing the end of my family business and uncertain future.

So, I’m spending the remaining days of the Yule season laying a strong foundation for what is to come.  I have cleaned and sharpened my tools — of both mind and matter.  My altars are renewed, my cupboard well-stocked.  I have taken care to protect my home and my loved ones inside, by any manner of means, by my hand.   And, I am laying plans for my future.  I am holding both fear and depression at bay, not unlike a Viking warrior, with one hand on my shield and my eye to the horizon.

My resolution is my word; my word is my oath.  So mote it be.

I wish you blessings.


Samhain or Halloween?

Which is it: Samhain or Halloween?  Is there a difference?

I’ve always loved Halloween.  But, as a witch, I love Samhain even more. Are they the same?  Not at all.  Are they different?  Not completely.

It is true that both are celebrated on or around the same day, and both have roots in the ancient pagan end-of-harvest celebrations.  But, Halloween is a secular folk holiday where adults and children engage in the realm of make-believe and fantasy through costumes, parties, or trick-or-treating.  Samhain, on the other hand, has a religious focus for many pagans and marks the beginning of the spiritual new year.

But, to many witches, to try and separate Halloween and Samhain would probably feel the same, to many Christians, as attempting to separate Santa Claus from Christmas.

In the ancient Celtic world, Samhain marked the end of summer and the growing season.  Any crops left in the field would be killed by frost; Death was in the air at this time!  This led to the belief that the veil between the worlds of the living and the dead was at its thinnest, and contact and communication with the spirits at this time was possible.

It was not such a far leap to wonder, then, — What, or who, was lurking in the shadows?

As a young girl, I loved Halloween.  None of us wore purchased costumes; it was up to us (with only minimal parental involvement) to come up with our own disguises, usually out of the dress-up box, — we were gypsies or old men or old ladies or hobos, sometimes with makeup but always with at least a half-mask over our eyes.  Yes, that was the idea! To change your look enough that your neighbors would not recognize you and your friends as you went door to door searching for treats.  No candy at this house?  Throw corn against the windows and run away before the porch light came on and you were seen!  No one at home at this house? Soap the windows!  Next year, they’ll remember to be home to pass out candy.

I remember walking along darkened streets (the ‘rule’ was, you had to wait until dark before going out) in a gang of children (no adults for trick-or-treating — they had to stay home to pass out the candy), going only as far across town as promised, and only to houses with the porch light on (the gang of children always did have a few secrets to keep on this score).  Some years, it was bitter cold or raining, — so careful planning was required when selecting a suitable costume.  Some years, and it was usually the year you chose to wear the old rubber full-face clown mask from the bottom of the dress-up box, it was unseasonably warm and the sweat stung your eyes and made it difficult to see.  Some years, you remembered to bring along a flashlight, but more often you tried your best not to trip on uneven sidewalks or over the root of an old tree, while running to keep up with the older kids at the front of the gang.

I remember walking through piles of crisp leaves, hiding behind bushes until the porch light went out from the house we had just “corned”, running past the old graveyard behind the church and dumping out my pillowcase full of treats when I returned home to see what I was given. Those were great memories, of course.  But, what I remember FEELING was something in the air, — something that sometimes made the hair on my arms stand up, something that made the whole gang of us take off running, for no particular reason and without comment.  This was something that sat in the shadow under the Yandrick’s tree, or behind the hedges across the road from the school path, — that was never there if you looked.  This was something that was so quiet that it felt like it was taking noise right out of the air!

As a young girl, this was my Halloween.  Do I miss it?  Not at all.  Because now I know it as Samhain.  The veil between the worlds is thin and the spirits and souls of my loved ones are welcomed home.  I honor them and this time, where past and present come together to mark the occasion of what is yet to come.

I wish you blessings.

The Apple, the Tree and Me

As a Crone, I am a believer in old proverbs that I heard many times over the years.  I used to think they were silly, but I have come to understand the beauty of their practical wisdom, expressed in a simple way, much like a well-written Country Music lyric.

One of my favorites has been, “the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree”, — whether because I love apples, or I thought it easy to understand – I can’t be sure exactly why.  The meaning always seemed straight forward enough; children may be forever “tied” to their childhood home, at least emotionally, is the most literal meaning.  But, it usually refers to the idea that children inherit both physical and behavioral characteristics from their parents, the latter often referring to a negative connotation (e.g. the son of a drunkard ends up as a drunkard).

But, my increasing-every-day Super Crone Wisdom sees so much more!  You see, while I may share some physical characteristics from my ancestors, I am one apple that didn’t fall from the tree, — rather, I flung myself from that old tree!  Small Town East Coast to Big City West Coast; Obedient Protestant Daughter to Rebellious Catholic Wife, and then, onto Crazy Wackadoo Pagan Witch.


Apples are always on my mind at this time of year!  I have so many great memories involving apples from my childhood in Pennsylvania:

  • gallon jugs of freshly-pressed apple cider on the porch
  • going to the fort every year during Fort Ligonier Days to see my grandmother and other ladies of the Eastern Star (each dressed in 18th century costume), attend a giant cauldron of applebutter over an open fire
  • gallons of freshly made applesauce – smooth as silk!
  • warm apple pies,
  • and my father’s favorite dessert, Apple Brown Betty (which, my mother claimed, he had never actually eaten!)


It is the apple that triggers my longing to return to the Tree.  The apple holds the reflection of my mother’s hands, working with practiced efficiency and her favorite paring knife, peel and quarter an apple for my after-school snack (an “approved snack” that would not “spoil my dinner”).  I can smell the freshly baked pie, — tucked safely into my grandmother’s pie basket under her neatly pressed and carefully folded apron, — as she climbed the stairs into our kitchen for Sunday supper.

My applehead spirit dolls epitomize the energies of the Crone Goddess in a very special way.  The shriveling face recalls the last stage of life, when the body is at its weakest, BUT the psychic and magickal powers at the strongest.  The Crone is the Transformer, breaking down our old forms to make change and rebirth possible.  At the center, — at the core — of the shriveled apple, remain the seeds of the rebirth.

The apple didn’t fall far from the tree.  It is still connected, over the miles and beyond the years, by heartstrings – strong enough to bind forever, yet gentle enough to strum the sweetest of songs.

I wish you blessings.

Mabon: the Harvest of Second Chances

There has been much joy in this year’s garden.  We have been blessed with a bountiful harvest of fruits and vegetables — the reward of my husband’s labor — combined with the riches that our chickens add to our ever-growing compost pile.  But, the sight of the dry, dead vine that once was this summer’s green bean crop leaves little doubt that the summer’s bounty is swiftly coming to an end.   Soon, all that is left of the sweet tastes of summer will be what has been captured and stored on pantry shelves lined with my grandmother’s canning jars, and in our generously-sized freezer.

Mabon, one of the four Quarter festivals in some pagan traditions, coincides with the autumnal equinox.  It is sometimes referred to as the second harvest, and an excellent time to identify those things in your personal life that may be out of balance, the time to take steps to re-align and re-ground yourself.  It is a good time to stop and relax and enjoy the fruits of our personal harvests, whether they be from toiling in our gardens, working at our jobs, raising our families, or just coping with everyday life.

I like to think of Mabon as the “second chance” harvest.  As I carefully gather and preserve the seeds from this year’s garden, I ensure that I have the chance of an even better and bigger harvest next year.  Any disappointments lingering from this year — caused by uneven watering, hungry pests, waiting too long to pick them, etc. — can be overcome during the next season, as long as I have a strong, viable seed to plant.

Unfortunately, while our garden thrived this summer, we experienced more than our share of disappointments in our personal life.  Specifically, our family business has not weathered as well as as our vegetable patch, and we believe it is time to change direction.  It is time to harvest what we have grown, save the viable seeds, and re-plant in another location.  It is not failure that we harvest from this experience; it is opportunity — to build something stronger and better than that we leave behind.  Because we have a strong foundation on which to build, we are optimistic that our new venture will succeed where the old one did not.  We will embrace the darkness, knowing it only to be a period of regeneration — from which will come rebirth.

I wish you blessings.



Bringing in the Sheaves: a Joyful Harvest

Sowing in the morning, sowing seeds of kindness,
Sowing in the noontide and the dewy eve;
Waiting for the harvest, and the time of reaping,
We shall come rejoicing, bringing in the sheaves.

Bringing in the sheaves, bringing in the sheaves,
We shall come rejoicing, bringing in the sheaves;
Bringing in the sheaves, bringing in the sheaves,
We shall come rejoicing, bringing in the sheaves.

Sowing in the sunshine, sowing in the shadows,
Fearing neither clouds nor winter’s chilling breeze;
By and by the harvest, and the labor ended,
We shall come rejoicing, bringing in the sheaves.


This Protestant hymn was one of my favorites growing up.  Of course, as a child, I didn’t fully grasp the liturgical message of the lyric, especially in the (omitted) third verse*.  But, I did enjoy the idea of celebrating at labor’s end. — Rejoice in the harvest; reap that which has been sown.

Lammas (also called Lughnassadh) is the great festival of Lugh, the Celtic Sun god, in honor of his foster mother, Tailtiu.  The first of three harvest festivals, it is a time for gathering in and giving thanks for abundance. Our hard work will help feed us through the winter, as well as provide the seed for next year’s rebirth, regeneration and harvest.

I do like to use this time of the year to look back to the intentions I had at Imbolc and see how far I may have come in order to achieve my goals. Since I am a Great Procrastinator, I usually find that I have somewhat fallen short.  But, this harvest holds at its heart the seed of all future harvests.  For me, the celebration lies in the fact that I always have another chance to succeed, as long as the seeds of my desires live on.  As I carefully save the seeds from the fruits gathered from my garden, I am reminded to hold onto my dreams and tend them until they do reach fruition.

But, underlying this celebration is the knowledge that, as the Sun wanes, it is a time of change.  The darker days of winter are around the corner. It is time for me to take stock of the preparations I have made.  I may have a bountiful harvest from my garden to enjoy in the dark of winter, but do I have more preparations to make to realize the personal goals I may have set for myself?  So often, we have our “eye on the prize” — and risk falling, — tripping over bumps we do not see in the road.

I’m thinking of my favorite image of The Fool in my Hoi Polloi tarot deck. Like him, I see a new adventure in front of me, every day.  But, also like him, I risk falling if I am not prepared for what may lie ahead.  One step at a time, one day at a time, one harvest at a time.

I wish you blessings.


*Did I make you Google?

Litha. It’s good for what ails you.

Cape Cod, Massachusetts.  Virginia Beach, Virginia.  Nags Head, North Carolina.  Rehoboth Beach, Delaware.  New Smyrna Beach, Florida.  Every summer of my baby boomer childhood, my family took a two-week vacation to Some Atlantic Beach City, USA.  Most often, I grumbled as I took my place in the backseat of my dad’s Chevy, for I knew it would mean spending hours and hours sticking to hot, vinyl car seats, fighting carsickness and vying for bits of space not already occupied by my older brother’s ever-growing long legs.

My mother would disregard the grumbling, offer salty snacks to quiet our angry stomachs, suggest word games to play or license plates to look for — anything to keep us from distracting my father from his driving tasks.  I admit that my grumbles more than once grew into full-blown sobbing fits.  I was certainly missing everything happening at home while I was gone. My summer would be ruined!

“Nonsense,” my mother assured me.  “It will be good for what ails you.”

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The Crone at Beltane

When I was younger, I wondered a bit how the Crone must feel at Beltane. After all, it is the Sabbat (I thought) that belonged to the young.  The union between the Goddess and the God finally occurs, and we all join into the celebration of sexuality and fertility and share the passions that mark the beginnings of new life.

What part is left, then, for the Crone?  Yes, as a pagan I do see sexuality as something that is holy and intrinsic to all of us, as holy beings.  We are the Goddess and the God we seek to become.  In my heart, I am Maiden, Mother and Crone — now, then, always.  But, in my mirror, I am Crone.  I will not be circling the Maypole for fertility; if it is luck I am seeking, I will not obtain it by jumping the Beltane fire. Continue reading “The Crone at Beltane”

Do You Know Your Big Three?

This photo was taken at a Bohemian Gypsy themed birthday party, where I was solicited to provide tarot readings for guests.  What a great time I had!  I did know most of the Querents, at least casually.  One by one, they approached the table for a reading, — with open minds, open hearts and (somewhat unfortunately) a sense of humor.

Don’t get me wrong.  I understand that most people consider tarot to be “for entertainment purposes only”.  In time, I think I can change their minds.

The same goes for the Weekly Tarotscopes I’ve been posting here on this blog.  But, this one I totally understand.  Most “weekly horoscopes” (of any kind) are too general to be of use to anyone, because they are based solely on a person’s Sun sign.  But, that is two details less than the absolute minimum one needs to describe themselves in astrological terms. Continue reading “Do You Know Your Big Three?”

Rejuvenation at Ostara

All creatures in the realm of Earth, awake!
Greet the Maiden and Her Lover,
Who herald the coming of Spring.


Who doesn’t love Spring?  For some, it means the end of long nights and the bareness of Winter.  For others, the greening of the landscape and the fragrance of newly opened buds awaken senses dulled by the long chill. For us all, it is the season of creation.  The land that lay dead has become fertile once more.

Ostara, the second of three Spring sabbats, marks the point where night and day stand in perfect balance, with light on the increase.   This season brings hope, joy and inspiration for new ideas.  It is a time of planting gardens, coloring eggs, and Spring cleaning.  Just as we sew the seeds in our garden, we can plant the seeds of rejuvenation in our lives.  It is common to use this time to free yourself from things which may hinder progress in obtaining your goals.  This is a good time to take steps to attempt to gain things we may have lost, or to gain qualities we wish to have. Continue reading “Rejuvenation at Ostara”

Imbolc Gifts from the Goddess

If Candlemas be bright and fair
Winter will have another year
But if it be dark with clouds and rain
Winter is gone and will not come again.


Yes, I realize it seems strange that I enjoy the traditions of what we modernly know to be Groundhog’s Day.  But, I was transplanted to California after spending my first 27 years waiting for Punxsutawney Phil to make his forecast each year.  In Pennsylvania, Phil is Word.

The truth is, Spring comes to all of us; it even comes to those of us living in southern California.  It’s arrival may be a little quieter here, or more likely to go unnoticed by those who do not pay attention to such things. But, it is every bit as magickal. Every year, everywhere, around the beginning of February, we begin to see the promise of fertility, new life and new hope, and gather to celebrate the reawakening of Earth. Continue reading “Imbolc Gifts from the Goddess”